*( Note to "Fantom Finn" )* No, I havn't talked to Ben about any of that. Well, I did maybe sort of tell him that I wasn't against the idea of us going out again. But that was all.
Ohhhhh, that hurts. Cramps..... owwww. Just shoot me now. I can't handle it, oh the torture.... ohhhhh nooooo.
I went fishing yesterday with Mat Lewis. I caught 4 fish!!!! FOUR!!! I was so excited.
Yesterday I went walking with Bobbie and we found Mat and Chris fishing, so we kind of tried. Then I went home and Mat came too, and Ben W. came over, (my mom is literally OBSESSED with hooking us up and FORCING us to marry, no freaking lie) But yeah, we went to the pound to look for a kitten, and there were 3, and AWEEEEEEE SOOO FLIPPING ADORABLE! And then, we went home, and sat in the car and listened to the radio. And.... then Ben went home and Mat and me went fishing again, which was when I caught 4 fish. Just little fish, but Mat freaking sucks. Less then 5 minutes and he has like 15 fish. What a load of crap. No lie. I was gonna clean Ben's car today, and later Mat and me were going on a picnic and fishing again. But I can't go anywhere because I came home late and my mom doesn't want me hanging out with Mat. What a fruit. I'm SURE she'll let Ben over, she told him to come over anytime. She is REALLY obsessed. I'm not even kidding, you should see her.
I, on the other hand, came to a descsion( I can't ever spell it) last night. Mat kept telling me how I should go out with him and blah di blah di blah. And I told him I didn't think I should go out with anybody for awhile. Which really is smart, But I guarentee I won't stick to it for long. But I always like assholes, or guys that don't always treat me right. For instance, Stevie. Alcoholic. Man-Whore. Cheater. Liar. (Oh hell oh hell cramps cramps!!!!!!!!! I NEVER get cramps!!!!!!!!!!!!!) And Ben didn't always treat me right... though I still miss him a lot. Ben W. is a lot better then them though, speaking of which, he found the $3 I left in his glove compartment and gave it back.... darn it. : ) But yeah, Bobbie always tells me to fix myself. And she's right. I can't be happy, or make anyone else happy, until I"M happy with myself. And I need to work on that. But it's SO hard when I don't WANT to wait anymore. I miss Ben so much, and I think about him all the time, and then I miss other guys, but not nearly as much, because I really loved Ben. And then I have my mom trying to hook Ben W. and me up again. It's so riciculous. I'm done with writing for right now.
BangBang Baby.
(Anyone got an midol? I'd kill for one right now. But.. a vicodin might work, or some weed.... or some kind of DRUGS!!!!!!!)
