So yeah. I hope (though it's doubtfull) that Jim and Ben read this, because then they'll see I'm write. But yeah. I told them last night Bobbie hated me. soooo right, wasn't I? I was talking about under this bridge what would happen if someone slipt and fell and their head was bleeding and their crying and what would you do? Would you stay and get busted for drugs because you love your friend that much, or would you be so worried about getting in trouble and think their going to die anyways so they'd never remember you left, and save yourself? I'd stay for Bobbie if she was bleeding, but now I second doubt that because I think... Would she still stay for me? And I hate second guessing myself and my own actions. I was getting so worked up over this thing last night, and I was ready to like, cry. It was flipping crazy. But I was right, she hates me, and she probably wouldn't stay. So would I stay for her and sacrifice my own life, to save hers? Or would I leave her there on her own?
That's tough to think about. I was discussing how it was like a LifeTime movie, but they don't watch enough LifeTime to get it.
I keep sniffing my jacket, I think it smells like rain or something, but I wasn't wearing it yesterday, and I'm pretty sure it's clean. But I think it smells funny, and ic an't figure it out. Boy, that makes me sound really hygenic now doesn't it? Oh well.
So I'm really hungry. We didn't have any orange juice this morning, so I substituted with Mello Yellow. Good choice of substitution for freaking O.J. isn't it? Yeah, lol. I would just about kill to get a freaking donut right now... I always want to spell it donought....but that isn't it.
I keep trying to think about yesterday, and remember everything that happened, but I seem to be slightly foggy.... I remember and all, it just takes me a minute, I seem to be missing a few gaps.... and then I have to think about it before I recall exactly what happened. Like I remember sitting on the back porch, but how did we get there....? And exactly who was there? I think Jonn was there, oh yeah, and heather (barf) came but she didn't stay very long cause nobody was really paying much attention to her. So yeah, I was happy about that. Oh, they were playing hackey sack with a plastic cup, I remember now. And Jim kept asking what time it was, and it was going SOOOOO freaking slow. I swear, man, he'd ask what time it was like 5-10 minutes later, and I would think it had been a couple hours, or at least like, a while, but no man, it was crazy. He thought it was going really slow too.
WHOA! This kids flipping crazy!!!! He wouldn't have sex with Bill Gates for $200 Million....!!!!!!!!!!!!! I sure as hell would, I'd do it for $100 Million. Fuck man, I'd do it for $1 million!!!! $200 mill, your set for life....
Anyhoo, I remember leaving when Jim did, but Ben was like, come this way, so we all went to Ben's (Jim and Me) and I only stayed for like something between 15-30 minutes, it seemed a little bit longer though.... But oh well, cause it was great anyways.... and yeah.....
So yeah, anyhoo. I hope it doesn't freaking rain all day. Oh cause that would totally suck. I didn't mind it any yesterday, I just kept on trudging through the rain, going all slow and shit. I didn't even bother to wear my hood, cause I didn't mind it much. I was gonna just sit under the bridge, but that's when I heard Jim and Ben yell cause they seen me, so I went with them.
Mat Lewis is freaking crazy obsessed or something. He knows where I am... even when I don't talk to him for like days. He freaking calls around and ask people if I am there or something, like he did on Tuesday or something. Freaking freaks me out.
Well, I guess that's enough chatter for the day.
Bang Bang Baby.
<3 Susie